got snuck up on by depression again. this fucking sucks. i need something to go right. i don't have the energy or the motivation to fight with this right now. fuck fuck fuck fuck.

don't do this to me again. i don't have california waiting for me to help me make it through this time.

 
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Why do the most stupid fucked up horrible things always happen in March. Why. Who decided that March needed to be the shittiest month in the world?

i don't need you i don't need you i don't need you i don't need you i do need you i don't need you i don't need you i can't give in i will not talk to you first ugh i hate this i think i am going to throw up but i will not give in i will not go crawling back to you this time when i am not the one who did something wrong i don't need you i don't ( Read more... )

9-0. it was a good run. you did good boys. i guess the rose bowl is okay.

though the fact i was just sobbing may be misleading. over football! who'd have guessed.

nooooooooooooooo :(


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living with each other has somehow, inexplicably to anyone, lead to my three best non-smelly school friends falling apart at the seams. and i don't know what  to do. i want to fix it. i am the fixer. but i feel like in the course of the month it's already spiraled so far that there's nothing any of us can do any more. i don't know. i'm too far ( Read more... )

So I'm drawing a picture of mew, right? It's cute, ok. It's playing with its tail, hahaha like we were talking about when we (definitely weren't) watching the first movie. Okay ( Read more... )

things that annoy me:
1. that my car is going to be out of the shop the day after prom.
so i guess we're taking the cavalier.
rad.
PRAISE THE LORD MY DAD WAS PLAYING A CRUEL JOKE! it's going to be ready tuesday/wednesday at the latest.
SIGH OF RELIEF!
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Am I the only one who thinks this is in really bad taste?

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